Pieces of my heart

I'm not sure I believe about finding "THE ONE". How can there be only one, when we are evolving creatures ? Who we are today is different from who we'll be tomorrow ? How can we expect to stand still when we are constantly moving ? Maybe there are multiple ones ? For each person we are at each moment of our life. I promise I'll keep true to myself, it's the only way to be happy now. I can't wait to meet all the ones my life will bring me. All these beautiful souls, that will share bits and pieces of their heart with me and allow me to grow even further and keep me real.

Slowly I peel the layers to become who I am I remove the half truths I leave behind what does not serve any purpose anymore I stop hiding the light and make it shine a little bit more Slowly With each layer I remove I become myself Strong Powerful Courageous

I want to exist In the space in between Where I can just be Without a label, a career or expectations Where the present is the only thing that matters Where breathing is the only important action Where no decisions have to be made No actions done Just existing Breathing Being

There is a storm inside me A battle between the child I once was Hurt, afraid, feeling unloved and unworthy And the women I want to be So powerful, with her soul on fire it shines so fucking bright So happy you can feel her energy a thousand miles away How do I defeat you, screams the women ? Let me go whispers the child and Be here now

I’m sitting in the darkness but I’m surrounded by light. I’ve always had this inner voice telling me I was not worthy of love. For a year this voice grew louder, telling me every fucking moment I was worthless. This voice grew so loud it prevented me from hearing anything else. I reached the point where panic attacks and anxiety were part of my daily routine. This voice is called depression. And depression is a fucking bitch. So i’m sitting here in the darkness, knowing there is light but not being able to reach it. Trying to be patient and navigating these dark waters until I can emerge, stronger, more authentic and happier.  -November 2017-